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Motivation

This is an autobiography, started in 2015, and that I shall continue as long as I can.

Why an autobiography? I am not more important than the street sweeper in your neighborhood, or than an African in the bush. However, there are two very important reasons for telling my life story:

-You have the same brain and the same genes as me. I have not been invested with any divine power, and especially I got no help from any human «system». So that, everything I have been able to do, you can do it too. The description of my plans, my attempts, my inner journey, can therefore be precious to you, to be able to obtain the same results, or to avoid the same painful mistakes. This book therefore describes them in detail.

-I bear witness to my time (or rather the times that I knew, because the world has changed a lot in such a short time). It is a duty of memory, because when the witnesses of an era are dead (the primary sources), only remain the official speeches of politicians and of the media (the «interpreted» secondary sources). And archaeologists know too well how useless these official speeches are to truly understand an era. Hence the irreplaceable role of independent witnesses and chroniclers: only the eras which had them are truly known and understood, for example ancient Rome.

Table of content

Each chapter (Internet page) represents a different period of my life, and each sub-chapter a particular aspect in the period in question. However, I did not write in this order, but according to my inspiration. I indicate all the dates of writing or updating.

 

Childhood in Saint Dizier, 1953-1964

Happiness in Béchar, Algeria, 1964-1967

Mont de Marsan and our property, 1967-1973

Military college in Brest, 1971-1972

Student at Pau, 1972-1973

Research in politics: Bordeaux and the leftists, 1973-1975

Toulouse and the ecologists, 1976-1981

Research in spirituality: New Age community experience, 1981-1989

Toulouse, toward real spirituality, 1990-1997

Lavaur, Buddhism, my children, 1998-2005

 

The chronological order, however, makes a particular theme difficult to track. I therefore added pages on several threads, For this reason, some passages will be duplicated so that they can be easily followed without having to click on links. (These duplicates are two displays of the same file, so they remain strictly identical even when modified).

 

Thread: spirituality

Thread: Trains

Thread: UFOs

Thread: virtual worlds

Thread: wars

 

 

More detailed motivations

 

Internet as an Historical memory

Since recently, the Internet is supposed to allow everyone to express themselves. But we already know that the official archives will only keep «representative» sites, that is to say, what suits the system. In any case, a mouse click is enough to erase the memory of the Internet forever, which is even faster and more radical than burning the Library of Alexandria. Thus, if we are not careful, all the hopes, achievements and expectations of real people will go down the drain as surely as with the Cathars or the Mayas, to show only an image of the world corresponding to what is thought in the big league, an image where only money and power count.

Examples: the Biblical story of Moses in Egypt and the Egyptian archives on the Hyksos do not match at all, each accusing the other of being the oppressor, to the point that we are not even sure that the two stories are talking about the same thing. Gallic spirituality has only reached us through a very distorting Roman filter, due to their taboo on writing. The same goes for Berber mythology or the Buddhist Greek culture of Afghanistan, all irremediably erased as computer hard drives. The Mayan codices were almost all burned, making impossible to refute the official vision of a cruel people who practiced mass human sacrifices (in all likelihood, this is a confusion with the Aztecs, who did). Similarly, those who will read Wikipedia or television archives in a thousand years will hardly be better equipped to understand the ecological, artistic or spiritual movements of my time, reduced to simple struggles between political clans or assimilated to sects.

 

And no, the media do not count as witnesses or chroniclers. Being commercial enterprises, they are heavily subservient to money and power, and therefore they savagely filter information, as much as the feudal or religious powers of the past did. We shall see in this text several important cultural or social movements which were totally hidden, distorted, or even destroyed by the media. Including by the so-called «progressive» media like the newspaper «Libération», which in fact launched the groty-punk movement, broke the anti-nuclear movement and crushed the free radios.

In some cases the media, and their new disguise the «social» networks, have brutally taken sides in wars, while pretending to be neutral: facebook fanning the hate of the Rohingyas, wikipédia accusing the victims of the Yougoslavia wars, or youtube who relayed all the lies of the LTTE death cult in Sri-Lanka. Thus, the official History of my time is already rotten with lies, even before being written! Which already amply justifies this text.

 

Commitment

For these reasons, everything presented here is as faithful as possible to my memories, and verified when possible. AS LONG AS IT IS STILL POSSIBLE. Because quickly the facts sink into oblivion and the falsehood accumulate, to the point of soon showing a totally imaginary world, without any relation to the reality experienced in our times.

 

And if it was the same with all the past eras, which are so complacently described as collections of crimes and idiocies? A History showing the evolution of the arts, ideas, good news, would simply have no connection with the one of the school, which only shows wars and power intrigues.

 

Also, my era will have seen more devastation and destruction than all the calamities of the Bible. I was lucky enough to still see a bit «before». As in the film «Soylent Green», you have the right to know what nature was like before plastics and insecticides. Without idealizing society before the modern world either... it was not pretty. It smelled of soot and manure, the children were cold and they looked stupid. In the countryside, we more often came across backward country bumpkins armed with a rifle, than with ecologists and flowering meadows.

But my era also saw more hope and positive achievements than any other. You will probably be interested to know why certain things appeared, how they proliferated or why they failed.

 

What I shall not speak about

(Permalink) Written inDecember 2016

Well, this is not really an autobiography. There are things I do not want to talk about, because I have also committed, like everyone else, blunders of which I am not proud. Let us still say that I never did anything serious, nor I knowingly committed evil.

Another important silence: I shall not criticize my family. My relations with them were not always optimal, and they sometimes led me to take some distance. But most of the time it is only about personal problems, the kind of stuff considered petty to take revenge or to display in public. In addition, my mother helped me a lot, and my father too. I shall however talk about the problems of sociopathy or racism, because on the contrary, it is hiding them which is bad taste.

 

The same goes for my personal or professional relationships, whose blunders I shall refrain from pointing out.

 

«My family» also includes the women I knew. Unless a deliberate bad action deserves to be denounced, it would be inelegant to give details in this area. And not a «list», even not a number. In any case, for obvious reasons I shall not talk about «my sexuality»: I do not want to end up with a «sexuality» section on Wikipedia. It is not a sign of seriousness. Imagine a «sexuality» section on the page of Obama, Einstein, Pythagoras, Gandhi... even the disrespectful Wikipedia does not dare. Clearly, if they talk about someone's sexuality, it is to belittle them.

Last but not least, I shall not give the names of my children (and not of their mother either). Because their dearest aspiration is to have a normal life, without a constant reminder of what they have suffered, nor to be reduced to the role of interesting victims. If you find them, please respect their lives, and build on the future instead of cultivating the past.

I shall not criticize the people who gave me spiritual teachings or advice. I rarely had to complain about them anyway, and never for serious reasons. On the other hand, I have a large reserve of assorted stink bombs for all the liars, false masters and sects that I met. Prepare a lot of popcorn!

 

 

Dictionary

(Permalink) Started in September 2016.

A series of interesting French or international words that you may encounter, from the French Picard dialect by my parents, or from other languages the French interacted with. Plus some words that I invented in my stories, and which accommodate well in common use.

 

Arpète: a bad or beginner worker. In fact in Occitan it was one of the stages of learning a trade, corresponding to an age group. Unless it is from the German «arbeiter».

Belou: a person. Familiar, often a compliment.

Bétin: an animal, Picardy dialect, through my mother’s family.

Bézef: pas bézef, not much. From the Arabic (or Berber?), by colonial Algeria.

Bibite: in Quebec, a beast, a small animal, a critter.

Bignou: Telephone. In fact, this word is originally a bagpipe, in Brittany.

Bigophone: Telephone, considered as a musical instrument. Wikipedia gives a history of comic music instruments of this name, but I never heard of them anywhere else.

La biquette: the penis, when I was a child. I do not know why this name, that I never heard in other contexts. Except once in a monastery of Buddhist nuns: they spoke of taking care of «their biquettes», a herd of dwarf goats. I laughed under my breath...

Bizarritude: something bizarre.

Bobo: You have to be careful that this word has been made Newspeak. Normally it is a contraction of «Bourgeois Bohème» which points to the contradiction of claiming freedom or detachment from material wealth, or a pretense of ecology or socialism («Bohème», the word before the Hippies, see the music of those distant times «Ma bohème» by Arthur Rimbaud, set to music by Léo Ferré, or even «la bohème» by Charles Aznavour), versus applying Bourgeois values ​​such as ostentation of wealth or social selection. This word therefore points to a form of inconsistency or hypocrisy, which makes it pejorative. It is the continuation of the Yuppies (golden Hippies) today. Bobo culture is also fond of bizarre ideas supposedly advanced, such as «gender» «studies», homosexual adoption, gluten-free, etc. But these people are careful not to engage in any authentic commitment, neither in the social nor in the spiritual.

The deviations in meaning are of two kinds:

-The real bobos, who think to be evolved, or who speak in the name of those who really are.

- In fascist language, anyone with advanced values, like ecologists, isindistinctly called «bobos».

In the USA, they have not really grasped the pejorative side, in a country with less Marxist culture, where ostentation of wealth is more considered legitimate. But they have a related concept: «woke», similarly made Newspeak in the same two ways:

- Annoying leftists who believe themselves to be superior

- Fascists who call everybody woke.

Bobo is not synonymous with new financial nobility. These two sets have common elements, but also elements which are in only one of the two.

 

 

La boudine: the belly. Picardy dialect. I remember reading this word, in comics like «Bibi Fricotin» or «Les Pieds Nickelés».

Bradadery (a word I invented): a dromedary who does not go fast.

Broutchemolle (a word I invented): a word devoid of any meaning or defined grammatical type. It is very useful, a bit like a zero in semantics (the neutral element, in the Sets Theory).

Cagade: blunder, from the Occitan «cagar», to shit. In French, this expression often has a comic connotation that an accident or a catastrophe does not have, like a snafu.

Chouffer, chouf: to watch, to monitor, a sentry. From the Arabic (or Berber?), via colonial Algeria.

Crapette: filth. Typically, the smell of crapette appears on a washcloth which has been used and left damp for some days. My mother often used this word, which I cannot find in this sense on the Internet.

Cyrlikar (a word I invented): the bijective relationship between the learnings of a neural network in the brain, and the experiences of consciousness which arise when one of these learnings is activated.

Dailler, daillo, ça daille: boring, annoying. I wondered for a long time where this expression came from. Then one day I came across it: it is from the Occitan daillar, to mow down.

Disniais (a word I invented, but others have also thought of it, a composition of Disney and naive): the silly, simplistic and reactionary style that is the characteristic signature of the Disney productions, featuring characters with an ultra-simple psychology, without nuances, and totally devoid of any introspection or free will. They even destroyed the Jedis of Star Wars in this way!!!.

Disney is cited in the CIA's Robertson Panel report, as a possible vector of propaganda. And they did it, I perfectly remember seeing it, around 1964-66.

I also remember at the same time a detail which intrigued me: Donald's nephews always sleeping on their backs with their arms over the covers. I suspected that it must be very uncomfortable, but I was a million miles from suspecting the sadomasochistic explanation for such a bizarre practice: monitoring if children masturbate! An activity however light years away from the concerns of 10-year-old children in 1960. And I would say that monitoring this is borderline pedo.

So you will understand from these examples my distrust of Disney, as a resonator of certain trends among the most reactionary in society. Well, maybe in the 21st century the problem has diminished... But I have never seen anywhere any mea culpa or resolutions to do better.

Gaffophone: Musical instrument invented by Gomer Goof (Gaston Lagaffe). The Likpas are not left out, with the tromblard, which floods the concert hall, and especially the booter, which crumbles down the wall separating from the neighbors' bedroom. Please do not try this at home, it is real physics, not fiction.

Glaiole (a word I invented): the sticky stuff (caragenates-carob-starch) that you find in all sauces, yogurts, creams, soups, etc. There even is some in organic products! Origin: the History of the Great Likpa.

Gloye: mud. Picardy dialect. Also heard that for a moped or bicycle.

Godin: earthworm. Probably Picardy dialect, Champagne 1960. Note that it is also a family name, the creator of the phalansteries and the stoves of the same name.

Gornynx (a word I invented): the disgusting throat noises that you hear in some of Jean Michel Jarre's music.

Les gougouttes: the breasts.Picardy dialect. I do not know how prevalent this word is, which we used as a family word when I was a little child. Probably an allusion to a drop (goutte) of milk. This word has become very rare or forgotten in the 21st century, but it was immortalized by Brassens’ song «Quand Margot dégrafait son corsage, pour donner la gougoutte à son chat»

Guitoune: tent or cabin (familiar). We used this word frequently among the scouts. It is fairly well known that it comes from the Maghrebi Arabic «gitun», «tent» (Classical Arabic «qaitun»). But less well known is that the Arabs themselves stole it from the Greek: «koitôn», «bedroom».

Hebdromadaire (word of my invention): magazine delivered each week on the back of a dromedary. In French, «hebdo» means «weekly».

Kézaco (variable spelling) Few people know that it is Occitan, and that the real writing is «qu'ès aquò».

Loustic: someone funny. From the German «lüstich»

Magouille: scheme, scam, deceiving, mental manipulation. Appeared in the leftist vocabulary in the 1970s, has since spread everywhere. It must be said that there is material.

Nib (word of my invention): base element of a logical self-generation system. In physics it is the quantum interaction. In chess, it is a single move. In consciousness, it is a single event or an inflexion point in the consciousness content.

Oilxit: the exit from fossil fuels, July 1, 2030. There will be no postponement or negotiations. This word is a revenge on the idiotic Brexit.

Papinette à gogueneaux (or goguenots): toilet brush, by my maternal grandfather. And yes, these words appear in dictionaries like the Universalis, and the spelling is correct. I even suspect that this Vaugelas dude brought his science into the affair, although he probably never used a papinette himself.

Pedoclast: a worse than pedophile, who breaks children with disagreements on education, divorces, endless procedures, hostile legal decisions, sequestration in centers, hostage-taking for alimony, torture by refusing a stable foster family, breaking their bearings by telling them that they don't need morals, etc. Their karma is to reincarnate twelve times as an orphan or victim of divorce.

Pipaïolo (a word I invented): a person who is not serious, a fraud, almost a crook

Pipole: (Franglais, that is fake English «people», in real English «celebrities») weird people that TV talks about, although there is nothing to say about them. Technically, they are the members of the new financial nobility, excluding bosses and bankers, that is to say all those who do not need to work (For a noble, work is derogatory. The only work authorized for the new nobles is banker or boss. The squires can do sports, or «contemporary» art).

Pitchak: although I am not a fan of soccer, I like this crazy object born from the practical genius of adolescents, in the empty and cold world of the 1940s-60s which allowed them for so few creative activities. A pitchak is a substitute for a soccer ball, made of bicycle inner tube slices, about 5mm long each, assembled in the shape of a tokamak with a piece of string. Of course it does not bounce like a real ball, but its behavior has something erratic and gelatinous, that makes it funny, a sort of mockery on behalf of teenagers deprived of real means. I saw pitchaks when I was in the Lycée Victor Duruy at Mont de Marsan. An Internet search finds them in colonial Algeria in the 1950s.

Popoye: Occitan word, a critter, a small animal.

Rastaquouère: Variable spelling. The meaning is not very fixed either, it seems to be a Rastaman, a wearer of rastas, sometimes a black person in general. I have seen this word used with amusing or pejorative nuances (an olibrius), but also in a frankly racist sense. So be careful, if you do not know the context do not say this.

Ramoyer: to run over (with a car), hijack, steal. My mother used this word often, but I never heard it elsewhere. Wikipedia gives if a dialect from Reims or the Marne for «tidying, putting in heap».

Rhodoproboscidogenic (a word I invented): which makes you see pink elephants. To demystify the intoxication of supposedly «entheogenic» drugs (which would make you «see God»). When I make the effort to come out with a joke in Greek, you laugh, thank you.

Rhodoproboscidogènement (a French word I invented): longer than Anticonstitutionnellement!! Yeah!!

Ronflette (snorring): presence of poorly filtered main on the continuous power supply of an electronic circuit. Once I said that at work, they screamed with laughter. It must be said that in modern electronics the ronflette is rare, and it then results from a big mistake. But back in the days of tube radios using chemical capacitors with a random lifespan, this was a common problem, which was often discussed, source of an annoying buzz in the loudspeaker.

Scotomizing without lubricant: one of the activities of pedoclasts: keeping children isolated from loving ones, or sequestering them in centers, without taking into account their suffering. Yes, I know, the pun was easy. Pedoclasty is never far from pedophilia, anyway, and scotomizing does much more damage than sodomizing.

Female supremacist (a word of my invention): woman racist against men. And yes, it is built on the model of «white supremacist». And it is not by chance.

Zapette: television remote control. I invented this word, but it was found independently by many others, without I know who is the first one. The origin of this word seems to be from the Ukrainian «zaporogues», who zap the invaders. No?

Zigotto, zig(ue): A person. Colloquial, more or less pejorative, often an idiot or a clown. There is also the series of singular personal pronouns, from the argot: mézigue, tézigue, cézigue.

zimbrèque: strange, complicated or badly made device or thing. This word is old enough so that my father learned it to me.